Lessons

Lately in life there have been so many challenges that have come my way, that often times I really get discouraged. You work hard for no rewards you try your best to be the best at everything that you do, and you wish that you were the one getting ahead. But as I stop to think about everything, I am constantly reminded that God has a unique and perfect plan for my life. That just like this rose I have beauty in me that is from Christ. Things in life should not be done to get ahead for myself but to truly advance the kingdom of God and to love like Christ loves. If I dont get what I thought I wanted then i missed the whole point of why I was doing something in the first place.

My good friend Tiffany shared this with me today. "Do we begin to commend ourselves? Or do we need, as some others, epistles of commendation to your or letters of commendation from you? You are our epistle, written in our hearts, known and read by all men, clearly you are an epistle of Christ ministered by us written not within but by the spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone, but on tablets of flesh thtat is, of the heartAND!we have such trust through Christ toward God. Not that we are sufficent of ourselves to think of anything as being from ourselves, but our sufficiency is from GOD, who also made us sufficient as ministers of the new covenant, not of the letter but of the spirit for the letters kills, but the Spirit gives life

thats 2nd corinthians 3:1-6

Amen Tiffany I am a minister of Christ and i need to stay focused. Focused on what God has for me.

wow that came from nowhere

Well that over there is my best friend. Jon Godown. The love of my life. The person that has never left me, the man of my dreams.

Funny story this one. He has always been my very best friend and at times like my brother. We fight and we play hard. But even in those moments and when i wanted to kill him, I found myself missing him more than anyone and miserable without him.

God has a funny way of working.... when I least expect it I looked at Jon and then boom it was crazy its like I couldnt stop getting nervous around him. I had dreams about him and I even thought he was the most handsome thing Ive ever seen. (Which he is) But one thing led to another and now im with the man of my dreams.... cant wait to see what God does

Changes

Life is a very interesting thing..full of ups and downs, love, heartbreak and most of all changes. Change affects everyone sometimes good and sometimes bad. But something I have learned is that most of the time as scary and weird and uncomfortable that it may be, change is good and something that God has for us. Most of the time I sit and I think about wow God why is this happening to me? Why cant it be simple? Why cant I have a yes or no answer on this one? But them Im easily reminded that if I always had the clear cut answer then maybe I would run away from it. Im excited that God doesnt tell me whats in my future! In all honestly it would probably scare me half to death! So I have learned that even though I would die to know what is going on with my future... God knows much better then me why things happen and why he has me in a certain place. God is in control and I am his child why would he not want the best for me?

I heard it so nicely put one time... A father takes his child to the FAO Swartz and tells the kid pick out any toy in the whole store that you want! The child runs up and down and picks up a small little truck, and the father says "Why did you grab that small truck? Although its a great toy and you would get good use out of it, I wanted to give you the Biggest truck in the whole store that is the most perfect and will last forever" Man that story got me thinking... The father knew that the toy that child picked out was good and the child would have LOVED it, but the father had and even BETTER gift he wanted to give better than that child couldve ever dreamed. This hit home with me because sometimes I choose too pick what I WANT and I indeed am satified for a season and I have a blast enjoying it.. but why do that and grab what I want now rather than waiting for the BEST ultimate gift that I didnt even know what availible to me? God has a better gift for me. He has the perfect treasure just waiting to be received. I need to trust in him to know that he ultimately can see the best "toy in the store" and he is the only one that knows me more perfectly than anyone.

God does want to bless us and he wants to bless me. I just need to take a step of faith and really trust him. Because my big monster truck Im sure is around somewhere, but if I keep focusing on the small toy I may miss the opportunity to have the BEST toy in the store. :0)